Food is an issue at our house.
For me, food has always been an issue but I’m currently
trying to lose weight so… it’s a bigger issue than usual.
For Gary, food should have always been an issue but he wasn’t
about to let diabetes or a heart attack stand between him and what he wanted to
eat. Over the last two years, as his health has
declined, I’ve been struggling with what to feed him. On one hand, I desperately want him to eat
healthier food but, on the other, if I were him – bedridden, confused, and
living a joyless life, I’d want to subsist on junk food, too. So, I think I should just let him eat
whatever he wants. But then the grocery
delivery shows up and it looks like my 9-year old nieces are in charge of the
menu: cookies, candy, ice cream. But where’s
the harm, right? I mean, there’s no
chance he’s going to get better, so why not?
But still, I find myself trying to persuade him to eat a
vegetable – any vegetable….and mentally keeping track of how long it’s been
since any protein has crossed his lips.
So I keep trying and then I feel bad – food is the only joy left, why
can’t I leave it alone?
It’s because I want him to be healthy. That’s why.
Maybe it's also a little bit because I’m begrudging him his dinner of Nutter
Butters while I tuck into a Lean Cuisine heap o’something, still partially
frozen in the middle. But mostly it’s because
I want him to be healthy.
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